Tuesday, March 7, 2017

Week 1: Kimberly Kusturin Thoughts on the first week's reading and video



Just like the movies.  There is a made up world and then there is reality.  As an actor they have their on stage life and their real life.  In the video by Parker J. Palmer, he started by showing a piece of paper and how one side represents your onstage life (how you act for others; external) and the other your backstage life(how you are most likely with your close family and friends; internal).  Our onstage lives deal with things like what influences us, impact us, and questions if we are making a difference. Our backstage life focuses more on intuition, instinct, values and most importantly (to me) faith.  So basically it is what’s in our soul.  We have two different parts of ourselves, and we choose to show them as we felt like it.  This can be good or it can be bad.  It would depend on the situation. 
Parker J. Palmer asks “What are we sending from within ourselves out into the world, and what impact is it having ‘out there’? And “What is the world sending back at us, and what impact is it having ‘in here’?  People want to survive and succeed in their external world.  They want happy lives.  I know I do.  In that search you lose sight of who you really are.  In his video, Parker J. Palmer shows us how to knowingly move about your own “Möbius strip” toward a full life.  
It’s like that fine line at work; when can you be yourself and relaxed and when to be professional.  I work in a school that my kids attended.  This is totally great for me.  But at the same time I now live very close to many of the students I see on a daily basis.  Now I am no saint but I am a good, decent person.  When I am home I let my guard down and I live my “back stage” life.  Not that I do anything bad but I have kids on my block I work with.  SO I always have to be mindful of how I act, especially during the warmer weather when we all seem to be outside at the same time.  So this is what Parker may call stage two.  Stage two was defined as not feeling safe to be ourselves.  You build a wall.  In my case, I built a 6 foot fence.  This helped make me feel I can “let my hair down” in and outside my own home without wondering what the kids or their parents might think if they see me with a drink or with my fun rowdy friends.
In the book, on page 10 and 11 talks about views of adolescence and adulthood.  I found this most interesting because I have two children in this stage of their lives; one nearing adulthood.  It talks about how that part of your lifespan there are many physical developments going on as well as social and emotional experiences that shape their lives and behavior.  Working in a school, I see this with the little ones.  My groups of kids have many of their own personal struggles and I see how hard they try for acceptance from their peers and the staff.  One student wants attention so bad, it does not matter that he seeks it in a negative way.  Today’s children seem to be expected to grow up way too fast. 
I also found the part of the book about understanding how culture plays a role in our lives (page 13).  My husband can just turn on the news or some of this reality shows and we both think “is this the future?”  Culture as defined in the book is customs, values and traditions essential to one’s life.  What we find most disturbing is how little values people have these days.  Customs and traditions are very important but to me the values you instill in your children early on and set by example is even more important for how they live the rest of their lives.

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